Wish list

I want a guy
I want a guy with beautiful eyes
I want a guy who has wonderful lips
I want a guy who knows when to be dominant and when to back down
I want a guy who gives me deep kisses that makes my knees buckle
I want a guy who touches me in just the right places
I want a guy who can lift me up without breaking a sweat
I want a guy that accepts my quarks
I want a guy who people can tell is a bad ass
I want a guy who looks like a bad boy but is really sweet
I want a guy that has a jaw bone that makes me dizzy
I want a guy who's smile is to die for
I want a guy who will laugh when i laugh and hold me when i cry
I want a guy who tells me how beautiful i am, even if i have no make up on and i haven't showered in days
I want a guy who kisses me just cuz he feels like it
I want a guy who i can fell 100% comfortable around
I want a guy who gives me butterflys
I want a guy who kisses my hand when hes holding it
I want a guy who loves me for me
I want a guy who i can grow old with
I want that guy.... to exist

okay

I'm going to try my hardest to write more here. I feel much better when i do.

Gah.

I fucking hate the fact that i give so much to everyone i love and i don't feel i receive even half of that. I give, and i try so hard to be the best friend i can be. I bust my ass for them. I really try my hardest not to say or do anything they look down on because i dont want to make them unhappy or angry with me. They are my friends and i know i should be myself, but sometimes i wish that someone would try as hard to make me happy.

BABY!

you guys....

i want nothing more than to be with you all again. nothing more. seeing your smiles, your laughs, hearing your voices, watching your expressions, feeling your hugs, your kisses, your warmth, your snuggles, holding your hands, falling asleep in a mass pile-up, hearing your jokes (especially the ones toward me), being in character, going on mini-road trips, and just being loved by you all. <3 you mean the world to me, i mean it.

Friends girls!

.... mhmm

She said let's change our luck
This night is all we've got
Drive fast until we crash
This dead end life
Sweet dreams that won't come true
I'd leave it all for you
Brick walls are closing in
Let's make a run tonight

Blinded by the lights
Hold you through forever
Won't let you go

'Cause if you jump
I will jump too
We will fall together
From the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done
We'll say it was love
'Cause I would die for you
On skyway avenue

She said don't change your mind
Let's leave this town behind
We'll race right off the cliff
They will remember this
It all got so mundane
With you I'm back again
Just take me by the hand
We're close to the edge

Blinded by the lights
Hold you through forever
Won't let you go

'Cause if you jump
I will jump too
We will fall together
From the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done
We'll say it was love
'Cause I would die for you
On skyway avenue

Where are your guts to fly?
Soaring through, through the night
And if you take that last step
I'll follow you
Leave the edge and fly
We're finally alive

'Cause if you jump
I will jump too
We will fall together
From the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done
We'll say it was love
'Cause I would die for you
On skyway avenue
So what's left to prove
We have made it through