Monday, October 19, 2009

Wish list

I want a guy
I want a guy with beautiful eyes
I want a guy who has wonderful lips
I want a guy who knows when to be dominant and when to back down
I want a guy who gives me deep kisses that makes my knees buckle
I want a guy who touches me in just the right places
I want a guy who can lift me up without breaking a sweat
I want a guy that accepts my quarks
I want a guy who people can tell is a bad ass
I want a guy who looks like a bad boy but is really sweet
I want a guy that has a jaw bone that makes me dizzy
I want a guy who's smile is to die for
I want a guy who will laugh when i laugh and hold me when i cry
I want a guy who tells me how beautiful i am, even if i have no make up on and i haven't showered in days
I want a guy who kisses me just cuz he feels like it
I want a guy who i can fell 100% comfortable around
I want a guy who gives me butterflys
I want a guy who kisses my hand when hes holding it
I want a guy who loves me for me
I want a guy who i can grow old with
I want that guy.... to exist

Saturday, October 17, 2009

okay

I'm going to try my hardest to write more here. I feel much better when i do.

Gah.

I fucking hate the fact that i give so much to everyone i love and i don't feel i receive even half of that. I give, and i try so hard to be the best friend i can be. I bust my ass for them. I really try my hardest not to say or do anything they look down on because i dont want to make them unhappy or angry with me. They are my friends and i know i should be myself, but sometimes i wish that someone would try as hard to make me happy.